Out Beyond Ideas of Wrongdoing and Rightdoing, There is a Field. Meet Me There.

Out Beyond Ideas of Wrongdoing and Rightdoing, There is a Field. Meet Me There.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Who'd ever thought..

Who'd ever thought life had so many miraculous presents for me to claim as my very own. presents of prosper, happiness, inspiration, hope and presents of fortune. on the contrary, who'd ever thought these presents were right below my nose all this while that I have been searching and contemplating, "when will it be my turn to be complete and happy".

life can really surprise people, especially me. But I think that's the point. I think that surprises have such a great role in our lives. Mine for that matter.
I often look back, far back into my childhood and ask myself, "why me?" what did I have to go through the things I do? Why do I have to look for all the nagging issues and play them over and over in my head? "Im scared", I'd say... that one day I will regret all of this. I do now, I could only imagine when I really have to face my fears. I constantly try to prepare mystelf for destiny as though I know exactly what will happen to me next and all the while, I am destained by the simple conclusion that I have no idea what is next. So why do I do that? Ill tell you now. I'm no genius but that is a big huge waste of time. So I came to write about this because I finally came to drop all of it. I want to.. and I will now see life from a different angle. One where there is beauty, happiness, fortune, and joy in all that I do. Even something that would seem so horrible to even imagine, will too be a positive reactor. It is possible you know, that is the key to happiness, I swear it. I know it because I have tried it and it felt wonderous. I felt invincible and truly happy and yes, simultaneously, selfless. I have a much better relationship with all my friends and foes because now a foe isnt a foe but the greatest blessing in my life. This is because that foe is my greatest teacher in my life. I have never ever learned anything from any other person who has agreed with me, most often I learn by those who disagree with me. I am how aligned with my sould purpose in life. No one said will be easy and I may get distracted here and there as well as thrown off track but, I know that it was meant to be and I will come back to me as soon as I realise that I came to all my situations in life for the same conclusion and that is to be happy. it's just simple fate.

I want to thank someone special right now for giving me the opportunity to open my eyes. Someone who I should have trusted long ago, who had all the answers and all the right ways of thinking. Thank you Jessica-Lauren. You truly gave me the confidence to put everything into perepsective. You kept strong and practiced what you preached. I admire you, and I know that no matter what, at the end of the day, each mistake I make, I will come back to you and know that you are who I really am.

With the strength of God, I also know how blessed I am... and I will forever know that God is always there to support me as well. After all, God has made me fortunate enough to have all the problems I face, all the hardships, all the bad times. I truly am thankful for all of the suffering God, no sarcasm here, just irony but, you have been so Good to me ;).

I now look ahead excited for the future. I see Good things even through the bad things, I see growth I see beauty, I see true love for all that I have in my life. I love everyone even more than I ever did because I know exactly what love is to me.
I see each part of my life as a chapter in my very own novel, and a great way to relive happiness each time.

After all,
Happiness is a state of mind, Not a set of circumstances
- J.L.

Feel blessed for eveything in life, EVERYTHING. I promise none of it runs parellel to happiness.


  1. What a beautiful post! It's amazing to finally be in a place where we should all feel happy, inspired and hopeful. It's also so amazing to be apart of it with your sister!

    You are a wonderful lady with lots to offer to the world, and the world has lots to offer to you!

    The most important thing is to look back on our so called 'mistakes' and be happy that those mistakes are what got you to have the outlook you have now. It's literally all about learning to grow! :)

    Of course there are going to be those times where we prevail from our reality of happiness, but its at times like that, which will make a happier day tommorrow.

    I'd also like to thank Jessica Lauren because she too has helped me through difficult times, where I was brought down, but I am now able to feel strong, confident, happy, and love those around me and even things around me!

    You are a beautiful lady that I intend to grow old with, and our kids will grow old with each other as well <3. I will be here forever, and for anything :)