life can really surprise people, especially me. But I think that's the point. I think that surprises have such a great role in our lives. Mine for that matter.
I often look back, far back into my childhood and ask myself, "why me?" what did I have to go through the things I do? Why do I have to look for all the nagging issues and play them over and over in my head? "Im scared", I'd say... that one day I will regret all of this. I do now, I could only imagine when I really have to face my fears. I constantly try to prepare mystelf for destiny as though I know exactly what will happen to me next and all the while, I am destained by the simple conclusion that I have no idea what is next. So why do I do that? Ill tell you now. I'm no genius but that is a big huge waste of time. So I came to write about this because I finally came to drop all of it. I want to.. and I will now see life from a different angle. One where there is beauty, happiness, fortune, and joy in all that I do. Even something that would seem so horrible to even imagine, will too be a positive reactor. It is possible you know, that is the key to happiness, I swear it. I know it because I have tried it and it felt wonderous. I felt invincible and truly happy and yes, simultaneously, selfless. I have a much better relationship with all my friends and foes because now a foe isnt a foe but the greatest blessing in my life. This is because that foe is my greatest teacher in my life. I have never ever learned anything from any other person who has agreed with me, most often I learn by those who disagree with me. I am how aligned with my sould purpose in life. No one said will be easy and I may get distracted here and there as well as thrown off track but, I know that it was meant to be and I will come back to me as soon as I realise that I came to all my situations in life for the same conclusion and that is to be happy. it's just simple fate.
I want to thank someone special right now for giving me the opportunity to open my eyes. Someone who I should have trusted long ago, who had all the answers and all the right ways of thinking. Thank you Jessica-Lauren. You truly gave me the confidence to put everything into perepsective. You kept strong and practiced what you preached. I admire you, and I know that no matter what, at the end of the day, each mistake I make, I will come back to you and know that you are who I really am.
With the strength of God, I also know how blessed I am... and I will forever know that God is always there to support me as well. After all, God has made me fortunate enough to have all the problems I face, all the hardships, all the bad times. I truly am thankful for all of the suffering God, no sarcasm here, just irony but, you have been so Good to me ;).
I now look ahead excited for the future. I see Good things even through the bad things, I see growth I see beauty, I see true love for all that I have in my life. I love everyone even more than I ever did because I know exactly what love is to me.
I see each part of my life as a chapter in my very own novel, and a great way to relive happiness each time.
Happiness is a state of mind, Not a set of circumstances- J.L.
Feel blessed for eveything in life, EVERYTHING. I promise none of it runs parellel to happiness.