A Special Thanks to my lovely Bloggers

Hello my dearest Bloggers! I am soo extremely thankful I have all of you to share my thoughts, my daily blessings, my interesting stories, and my life lessons with!

To me, the blogger website has helped me shape my life. I kept so much bottled up ALL the time! .. I was never actually being honest with myself and tried to hide every emotion deep, deep inside of me. But all my supportive loving bloggers allow me to type it all out honestly! and You all have done nothing more but show you are reading and caring. Thank you all very much!


Since I have created this website, I have become more expressive about my feelings to Handsome, to my mom, to my family and friends and I have seen an imense change in me. I am truly happy that my honesty has broughten me close to the ones who understand me for me and stick by me. And if there are the few who have drifted, it was meant to be. And this is not upsetting to me because I have been nothing but be my complete self to them. But the upside is my loved ones love me just THAT much more for communicating and being honest so I didn't lose the ones I love. Bloggers, You have allowed me to shine! Thank you very much. I possibly wouldn't have taken the plunge to becoming closer to myself with out you!

A special thanks from Handsome and I

xoxo1love4all




Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Too School for Cool

Hello lovely bloggers :)

I hope you are all doing amazing!


I just wanted to blog a bit about today at school. I met up with one of my friends M who I havent seen in ages! ... It was nice spending some quality time with her. We are hoping to see eachother more often during her break on wednesdays in which I will make an effort to get to school earlier to see her. This year I have found moments to see my other good frien S at school too!! it's always great to bump into them so that I could unwind from a very long lecture. M and I just saw eachother for an hour today but we ate something and then sat in the building where my three hour long lecture would soon consume my life.

here is a picture of me browsing the laptop like a "too school for cool" kid would be doing!



After M and I snapped a shot of eachother too!




The night before I did some leisure cooking. I love to cook, it has become my favourite thing to do.





I also would like to remind you all about that face wash kit that I bought a few weeks back! I haven't forgot.. I have just been waiting a while to let the wash kick in. Well I recommend it! seriuosly!

It's working really well for me! I also suggested it to my younger cousin, and she was very pleased with the results! here is a picture of the kit, just to remind you all about it again...

I'm very honest with you guys, I usually am never pleased with results of face washes...but this wash is a keeper :)

Dinner at my place

Beautiful Bloggers! Hope you're all doing great:)

haha, a picture of Handsome as I caught him off guard.



I had to blog about this because yes, after three years about being with Handsome, he came to my house for dinner! this means, dinner wit the dad... dun dun dun.


He knows my mommy, he chated with my brother many times and came to parties where my brothers been, but daddy, not too many talks and walks with him haha.


But yesterday was initiation! no I'm joking. My family is italian and all, but my family is very accepting. Try telling Handsome that for three years. But Handsome wanted to come for dinner to talk to the familia, it was his choice, I never pressure him to do anything. But sure glad he came :):):)



I wanted to make something Handsome prefered and I know I always post pictures of fatina, but hey he wanted it and so I made it.. but this was what dinner looked like.




after dinnner we ate pumpkin pie and talked. Well dad and Handsome TALKED. not so much my mom and I.... They were talking about everything and anything and when my mom and I felt we understood their alien language we would butt in and say a few things.

Im glad they could chat up a storm, but what about me! no love for jessica??? haha

nonetheless, I was more than happy they really got along:):)

La vita Bella.



The ending result of a lovely evening:)


Thanks Bloggers for reading

xoxo1love4all

Some small accomplishments :)

This weekend I finally got the board put up behind my door that I have been oh so excited to do.

I consider this board to be multiple things. For one, it allows me to express my creative side. I have a few of my drawings on it.
I can keep track with a few of the things I need to get done during the day or futuristically.
I place quotes that give me strength and courage to be happy and optimistic throughout the day. (quotes that I get from some of my inspirational books i.e. Deepak Chopra, Neal Donald Wealsch, The Sectre, etc. Or even some that just come to mind, sometimes the advice we are looking for lies within our own domain.

And smack in the middle of the board I placed in bold letters, "Pray every Morning" instead of at night. I firgured it is actually more uplifting to thank God for the day ahead of you and then step out that door to enter the world than to pray at night and thank him for the day you just had to only sleep on it.

Below is a photo of my board :)


oh! and if you look at the top right hand corner of my board you can see pictures of Handsome and I with three little babies. Two boys and a girl. What we hope to have one day lol Dave and busters baby maker made it possible to combine our genes and see what our babies could potentially look like.. hee heee.. so cutee they are.

Yesterday I also go a new fashwash for my face because my face has been breaking out in blemishes and pimples all summer. My face has been in the worst condition this summer and ever recorded.. I definately needed to try to do something about it. I don't really use face washed and occasionally if I did it would be Marcelle, toning and cleansing lotions.

They were not really working for me anyways so I decided to try something new below is the kit that I bought.




I am on day one of the treatment, I hope for progress!

xoxo, Ladies Thanks for reading!

Memories always bring people back together

Hello friends! First off I haven't been on in a while I will catch up on all your blogs right after I type this out for all of you and myself:)

Yesterday night I met with a friend who I have known since highschool. Her name is Jessica as is mine, she is born in june as am I, and she is SO MUCH like me as am I like her!

I honestly have misser her very much she was always a good friend to me, who was always there for me. But life takes over you know? And you just begin doing the things you are always use to and feel comfortable doing. I have 3 close friends that I have a lot in common with and Jess, I love her but me and her were not on the same page, so we drifted.

She heard about my mom and she wanted to catch up and see how I was and give me support as she always did. I always told her for a out 3 months now... I would come around to do somehing but the days for somereason or another just weren't working out for the both of us.

So yesterday, we finally met up for a coffee and a chat. I am so happy to hear that shes really happy right now and she feels like shes finally herself and complete with who she is with in her life. I found it so coincedental since I was feeling the same way in my life so our talk was really impressive. Her and I always talked about boy problems in highschool because that was the typical teenage life you know? I remember she dated a guy from grade 10 till a year after highschool and when she broke up with him she called me right away to talk about it and I was right there for her despite the fact that we actually drifted around then too. But that's the beauty of our friendship. We never grew apart even though we were apart.

She brought up her ex and she always thanks me for being there for her because she said that if I wasn't there for her that day she would have never made the choice she knew deep down was right for her.
I told her sometimes you need someone to there listen to you and for someone to just understand you inorder to move on foward. As I was going on about this..she was searching through her wallet..

I was wondering what she was searching for but I just kept talking. She pulled out a peice of paper with my writing on it and said, "Jess, I never got rid of this... Everytime I switched my wallet I made sure I placed this in my new wallet. I feel it has always guided my way with whatever situation I'm in and you wrote it".
At first I was like what on Earth is she talking about? What did I write? I recognized the peice of paper but I couldn't remember what I wrote as I wrote alot all the time. It was a poem I wrote in 2007 for her..guiding her to make the right choice. It had to do with the mere fact that Our heart and our Mind combat eachother so much we never really know what to do!! It's so overwhelminng....

I remember now when I wrote this poem for her I was thinking about specifcally her and how much she was going through while making a choice on if she should be in the relationship or not. It was a long poem I wrote on 3 seperate peices of paper. I can't remember the first two as she only kept the very last one in her wallet..But the last one says it all..

This was what the last page read.

...was all about you, and now im through and there is nothing you can do. My conscience told my heart that you were the one for me. But as I got my brain involved the thought wasn't meant to be. Sometimes when your mind thinks twice about your hearts desire, It's a way of saying that your conscience is a liar.

basically, the whole poem states that your heart and your brain intersect through your conscience and that you need to understand them both equally. Your heart may feel love for someone but maybe that doesn't mean your inlove. And the only way to understand this is to use your brain too and not just your heart. If your brain thinks twice all the time... Then you need to be true to yourself and do what makes you, your mind and your heart happy and alot of times thinking twice is just what one needs to make that right choice in life whatever it may be.

Jess told me that she does't just use it with relationships she said that she uses it for work situations as well or any other situation.

I felt such a beautiful feeling come over me,first that my poems have come along way :) and secondly, that she repected what I had to say. It made me feel wise and strong and more assured about my own self...

Not only that... Jessica made me feel like I actually touched her heart and I know that this feeling is right, well because...I didn't have to think twice about it.;)



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What a Peaceful Place.

Hello everyone :)

I havent been able to write lately because I have been contemplating a whole lot. I feel like my whole life went through a whirl wind. And I knew that I had to take the leap. Although, I felt like I was going to be thrown right out of that whirl wind all alone... As inevitable as it was, I had to leap. I love all the people around me and I am blessed to have them in my life. But I needed to express myself to them for some reason. It just felt right. I talked to Handsome about a whole lot. And througout that talk I felt like luck was just not on my side. But after a few days, things got better. Alot better I must say.Not because of luck but because of love.

You know when your heart compels you to just let something go? well I did so. I needed to, and I got to see what love was truly about just by doing that. like a boomerang we both came back to one another at full impact. We are both still young but we know one thing, we will always have obstacles. All I know is that this obstacle that I endured was one obstacle that I know I won't have to face again.
This leads me on to an inspirational quote.

"If we don't understand the past we are condemned to repeat it".

That's one of my very important punchlines in life. And in this little moment, I needed to understand it and so did Handsome. We grew up differently just to generalize it all... But just like precious love birds; both flying different paths in life finally found eachother and continue their journey now flying the same path. Forever. Until one one dies off, so does the other.


Aren't they beautiful:)


... I took some time to think about my life and where I was at and where I am today. I find that I need serenity for this period of my time. And so doing, I thought of the one place I felt at eaze other than in the revine of my brampton home where nature was everywhere. At the bottom of my pool. I forgot how beautiful and tranquil water is to me. I love swimming. I swim every chance I get. But I lost the feel for swimming underwater because I hit teenagehood and let me just mention, blond was the "it" thing. Hence, I never wanted my hair to turn green from the chlorine! But my pool where I live today is salt water and my hair, well it's brown now so I began swimming underwater again. In this time of revelation... I felt I needed to visit the pool once again. Not to tan or feel a sense of relaxation, but to feel a sense of meditation. I stepped out my back door, stepped into my pool, lunged down and instantly felt peace as I swam from one end to another. At moments I felt like I was a peaceful creature swimming the ocean. no noise, no obscene dark objects, just beautiful, pure salt water. Call me crazy. But as I did that, I meditated. I found where my heart is even though that was obvious to me. I also found out why my heart is where it is. A rush and immense feeling of love streamed right through me just as I streamed across the bottom lining of my pool. I felt no anger, no sorrow, no insecuritues. Just peace and love. If I hadn't run out of breath I would have stayed down there way longer...
Meditating is a work of art. I suggest you find your peaceful place:) XOXO

I am Worthy of love.

So I have been doing a lot of contemplating. But this time I'm happy. I have learned alot about me through the many ups and downs and I realised. I deserve to be happy too. I realised that I am way too hard on myself, and that my feelings should come first and that they actually matter. I also realised that I constantly never felt worthy of anything that I can claim as my own. Like all the love in my life. Why do I always try to contradict it as if it is too good to be true? why do I doubt that no one will love me for who I am and that I need to prove to the world that I am really a good person? I needed to open my eyes. I am worthy enough to have really good friends in my life. I should stop doubting that. I realised that I am worthy of being loved by someone I consider to be absolutely perfect in everyway. That's what my problem was. I always felt that these beautiful people around me deserve better.But I deserve happiness just as much as they do! They are not perfect nor am I. To me, these people in my life that I love dearly are still beautiful people inside and out! But now, I just feel that I am too.

I know who I am, I am proud of who I am and I know longer fear acceptance. I felt so paralyzed this past while. I felt insecure, worried, and unsure. I didn't think ANYONE would understand the pain I have went through or the pain that I am going through just thinking about it all. But having a little trust in someone goes a long way. I trusted the words of a loved one and she made total sense. She said, " you are being way to hard on urself. You have to stop putting others on a pedestole because they are not perfect either, you are worthy of someones love and you have to start realising it" It doesn't matter what you have done it's what you are doing now. I'm happy I have my blog to express this feeling cause I actually feel alot better typing this out.

I am realising this feeling of guilt, doubt, unhappiness and replacing it with courage, faith and wisdom because I need to battle my feelings out and win, I need to have hope in myself that what I am doing is the best way to be, and realise why!

I am worthy, I deserve love, and I also deserve to love myself no matter what.

At Home All Day, And the little things I noticed LOL

Today was Beautiful outside! So I woke up early aroun 10:30 and took a swim. I did a lot of different work outs, hopefully I see some improvments! lol

Afterwards around 2 in the afternoon, my Handsome came by to see me:) Gosh I love him! I was so happy to see him I didn't even care that we watched the whole soccer game with without me asking to flip the channel, look through a magazine, poke at him out of bordem, or just get up and start walking around, lol I don't know.

I Just wanted to cuddle him while he watched the game:)

I am so into the soccer game only when brazil or italy plays because I cheer on Italy and my Handsome cheers on Brazil.

This is me with the Italy shirt lol, just to show some love and support.


Any other team, I just can't sit there the whole time!

I NOTICED so much though as I watched, cuddled up next to him.
I noticed how much these soccer players complain! Paaaleeeze guys, I see you! don't drop to the ground just for the heck of it and start screaming in agonizing pain!

Now that I'm cheesed up about this, here are just a few of the things I noticed
1.) Defence players decides to fall to the ground 1 minute after he got hit in the mouth. But the best part is, hes holding his nose.
2.) ITALY!! comonnnnn, De Rossi.. how obvious!! you're running and running and running as if your the lead of a race with people miles behind you and you leap in the air to drop in soo much pain holding your leg??? What are you doing!? Even better question? Why on earth did you fall while your team was in the zone!!! We could have scored that! Gosh!
3.) Some of these fights that break out just seem so extremely fixed. Just saying.
4.) Even many of the ref's calls or non calls for that matter seem fixed too.
5.) I mean, these soccer players take one tumble onto the floor of the field and they scream and cry like they are giving birth to a baby,(Now Try doing that)and the goalies job is to fly around the net saving shots! it is part of there job. WTH they don't cry??


OKAY, I'm sure there are more. Actually I know there are! But I had to post this because I ramble on and on about this each and every game lol. And all the guys in my life watching it with me didn't care to listen because there eyes, and ears were glued to the television.


After the soccer game, Handsome left me:( lol he had to go home and take care of some bussiness so I started cooking for the family :) Just mom, dad and I tonight. My brother worked late.

I had to make a bigger meal this time cause my dad has been really hungry lately after work lol well I tried to satisify him! I think I did.

I NOTICED he is so traditional! He is never pleased unless I make italian food! My mom on the other hand, allows me to experiment on her haha.

So, I stuck with the traditional Italian meal.

FIRST, I stared to cook the sauces. The one on the right was for the pasta, and the one on the left had onions and potatoes in it.




SECOND, I cooked up the fatina, same old same old I've been making




THIRD, Added A new food to the menue in which I've made plenty of times but never bloggged about it yet lol, is pasta with sauce




I gotta do what I gotta do to relieve some stress from my Momma in time of healing and fill my Fathers tummy up after a long days work! I love them both and they both need my help.

I've got the Energy! lol



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THANK YOU TO ALL MY BLOGGERS.
I HAVE A SMALL LIST OF YOU GUYS BUT IM GREATFUL TO HAVE ALL OF YOU TO INTERACT WITH! IT HELPS ME FEEL LIKE I AM ACTUALLY NOTICED FOR THE LITTLE THINGS I DO, LIKE TO DO, LOVE TO DO AND FOR ALL THE GROWING UP IM DOING. ALL THE CHANGES IN MY LIFE AND YOURS SHOULD ALWAYS BE ACKNOWLEDGED AND GRATIFIIED! DON'T IGNORE THEM THEY MEAN ALOT TO YOU:) YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!

TO ALL MY BLOGGERS ONCE AGAIN, THE SOCIAL BUTTERFLY WOULD LIKE TO LEAVE YOU ALL WITH A QUOTE THAT I HOPE YOU ALL FIND DELIGHTFUL AND ENLIGHTENING :)

We Delight in the beauty of the Butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty

Just keep on growing ;)

Lovely Day

First and Foremost! Happy Father's day to all the dedicated fathers out there!

Especially my Father.

Dear, Daddy

I Love you more than life itself and more than you'll ever know. I know I could be hard to handle at times, actually most times. But you are strong willed and determined to keep me in track in life. And you do a really good job at that.
As I get older I realise how lucky I am to have you as a father and I will continue to feel more and more blessed as the years go on.

Anyone could be a Dad, But it takes a special, loving, hard working, dedicated person to be a Father.

Happy Fathers Day!



THIS MORNING we went to my Nonno's house to wish him a happy father's day as well! He deserves a special father's day as well! I love them both and I hope they enjoyed their day.

We watched the Italy game this morning! Forza Forza! haha ....

Nika is repping the italia team more than I was!