What God Wants con't

I have to address this topic once again, what god wants- is nothing...absolutely nothing but to give us all the opportunity to experience life. I am not going to get in depth as I addressed this previously in another blog. I addressed it through my Favourite author of all time (Neale Donald Waslch) and his book "WHAT GOD WANTS" .... but this time I'm here to write about a second book from him called "HOME WITH GOD"... he has multiple series of this book which continue on conversations with god in attempt to aid us all from continuosly retsraining ourselves from being happy and allowing us to stay on track in life.

This book really brought me to the core of my being, to my pure soul, to bring me closer to God than I have ever been, because I am closer to understanding who I really am at the core of my being and that is God, as God lives within me, infact God is me elaboratively speaking.


We all must come to understand that we are never condemned or not loved by the Devine no matter what we have done. God will always love us. And much of what we condemn ourselves for, anything in life has, to do with the simple fact that we do not feel worthy of God. Even those who dont believe in God at all experience this through a subconcious level because the core of our being, which is god is also our concious.... and any guilt, shame, hurt, misunderstanding that thrives from our concious is also the same place where the exact opposite of that can flourish. As souls made into physical human beings at birth, we choose everything in life... infact we choose our life and when we want to live, wat experiences we want induce, what family we want to be enriched with, and much more in fact we even choose our own death... it is very hard to loosely state this without having to read the book to understand it more precisely. But I can assure you all that if you do go out and get this book, you will no longer quetsion my statement. Life is a big question mark indeed... but thats what our soul purpose came here to figure out. And God is with you throughout it all, the good the bad, the beautiful and the ugly.

The book changed my life, Yet im still learning each day and struggling with things and as I do, one thing keeps me on track and moving forward. one simple thought keeps me focused, and I too have many struggles staying persistent. But here it is, everyting that happens in life is meant to be, and that phrase means more than it ever did after reading this book, and I musn't look into the past as it is an illusion and an experience, nothing more nothing less... life can only go one from one point and that one point is Now. We must live in the now, and understand that now is where your happiness manifests from. And Now is who you are not yesterday or even tomorrow. But NOW.


"be distracting by the moment" Jc.

Selfishness is a Virtue

most people think of selfishness in the crudest way possible.
for example: stealing candy from a baby, eating all the food in the house and not leaving any for anyone else... etc.
and yes, I too can agree that in this tense, selfishness can be toxic.


The selfishness I propose is quite the opposite... I actually just mean that selfishness is a virtue..Bluntly stated. But when you learn to think about your feelings for once... not just others.. and start to manage them in the nicest way possible so that you can do what makes you happy first and foremost, you built LESS hostility and then it becomes easier to understand others needs too...

for example: if you feel you are always trying to make things better and putting others before yourself... you may be on the same boat as me... and many times, it doesn't work because there are many people that just take that as a weakness and step all over you even if they dont realise they are. This is when you should be selfish and you will see why it cane be a virtue in itself. Start putting your feelings first and do what makes you happy...make sure you come first before anyone else.. I know some of us find that difficult because we always want to make others happy.. but its a temporary fix when you put someone elses feelings before yours... the next time they will just expect it again, and again and again. This process takes sometime and I am not saying I am the perfect teacher as I am too starting to be selfish too! Just try to do what makes you happy first and foremost. You will realise how important that first step is in order to make someone else happy too...



The word selfish has been abused... we constantly call others selfish in belief that selfishness is emulated in the crudest ways. Yet selfishness is never taken into consideration and how important it can be towards making things better for everyone!

yes, there is the selfishness that can be very wrong and crude... but thats not what I propose... I hope I enlightened you all that its okay to be selfish! be it! you need to...in order to make things work..... after all.. if being self-LESS is a way of putting people first and a very common way of showing love to someone, then being self-ISH must be the common way of showing love to yourself...


AND many of us have always accepted the number one rule of thumb in life which is... how can you love others if you don't love yourself?

Thank you bloggers for reading and commenting and acknowlegding all that I have to say! I think a whole lot... and I like to write out everything I think and feel.. I'm sure it will benefit me if not today... one day :)


so just remember...

Selfishness is a virtue!

lets just try to not abuse the word and see how valuable it is by showing ourselves some love ....and then others!

xoxox

This ones for only those who.....

Dear Bloggers...
this one is for all of you who worry bout others.. so much you can't sleep at night...
Those of you who hate all the querrels and turbulations that go on in life and let them affect you dearly...

for those who hate to fight, hate hanging the phone up on others... who hate going for days without talking to someone that cares about you, just because your mad at them for something small....

Who feel like telling someone where to go and then the moment you do it the guilt just eats you whole...and you say sorry...

for those who want to just be happy! but struggles because they just don't feel worthy enough ....

Those who try and try and try and tryyyy all the time to just get people to understand how you feel in the most kindest way possible... but they just don't care or give you the time of day.

for those of you that truly cry and feel hurt about the littlest things..

for those who get really affected by the ones in their life that just shut them down... and only do what makes them happy.

for those who seem to always put their feelings aside and try to make someone else happy when you really feel like screaming on the top of your lungs about how selfish, ignorant, rude, disrespectful someone can be!

for those of you.. that try to make a difference, but just feel like you can't sometimes and its just way too damn hard...


for those of you that wake up saying this day is going to be productive day and you are going to be happy, but one slip just ruins it...

for those of you who try to be honest and not make mistakes, but they just keep on happening and you just keep on dwelling over them...

And for all of those that really do completely get what im writing out.... this quotes for you....

please.... my heart breaks all the damn time for every little thing well...... because I have one.

So to all of you...

You and I know must have a heart merely by the simple fact that it breaks each time... lets give our hearts a real break!... keep on expressing how we feel.. keep on trying to make and do things better than the last time BUT from now on... do not let those crude people, those bad days, those negative unexpected issues rip that heart up...Your heart is well overdue for a real break..... called relaxation.

Inspirational Quote and Poem!

Hello bloggers!!! this quote is perfect for the new year...

I hope you all have a very pleasant year a head of you and that it is much better than all the rest that had past.

I thought up another quote for all of you including myself.. it's perfect since this year I want to stop and I mean COMPLETELY STOP focusing on my mistakes ... because I have come to the conclusion that I keep on saying im getting better in and changing.. but I havent... I mean, I have changed a lot! positively of course.. but I am not fully happy just yet.. and I have realise why... its because I keep saying IM NOT THAT PERSON NO MORE... I AM NOT GOING TO MAKE THAT MISTAKE ANY MORE...IM BETTER I KNOW IT!!!... but, upon analyzing myself so much... I ignore the simple fact that I am just making mistakes in other aspects of my life now for example... I am soo honest not that I just tend to feel I need to express everylittle thing I do wrong... and at first if felt right now it just makes me lose the credebility I have for my own self... soo its time to reogranize my thoughts everyone...

Now is the time to accept the changes I made.. and stop thinking about them... and just remmember one thing about them... I have changed.. I am much nicer to my family, much more loving to Handsome... have been Very honest and sincere since then... but its okay to make mistakes and they will happen... and its not always right to confess to everyone what you have done wrong... but yet confess to just yourself and change it... you don't need to say sorry for everything you do and feel like they should know...you need to feel in your heart that you know your sorry and fenito... whipe your hands off and move on... that was my issue.. I always had to be so completely honest of my mishaps to everyone and even say things that didnt involve them but just myself... and felt like that was the only way to move on... but thats not true ... you dont have to be honest about things like that to others but honest to yourself... thats it thats all... this year has just started and I have realised that...and in this time... the mistakes become a lot more miniscule..I also believe that if I change in this way.. I wil gain all my confidence back that I had lost and because that person I truly use to be while I was in highshool.. a person who just lived for herself.. never talked bad about others.. just wanted to live... I want to be that person again because I havent been in a long, long time.

I have also realised who is understanding and loves me... because I would tell them everything and they never turned me down.. they always understood... it was actually just me who didnt understand myself... soo now need to just stop being that person who confesses eveything bc it just fed the fire... it made me not understand myself more and more...it was making me seek approval and not seek approvale from myself.
Alright no more blabbling...

here is the lovely line I thought up for each and everyone of us who feel that this is what they needed to read:

when you keep focusing on the edge soo much attempting to avoid it... the minute you look away you'll fall... Stop focusing on it and just keep on steppin... you'll be suprised at how well your balance is

Here is a poem I wrote a long, long time ago... I dont know how I found it while looking for school books for an essay I have to do...

take a loook!

" Its alright, It's okay, life takes it's toll anyway. No matter what happens and what choice I make, It's what I wanted in the first place. Why fight with myself and makes things worse, It was the choice I made so make it work. It's not about others or if they're hurt. It's about myself and what I am worth. So once I choose a path let it be, don't let guilt take control of me. walk along, walk it strong and soon enough you'll do less wrong!"




We need to stop dwellingg.. stoppp thinking we are bad, wrong, immoral, unrighteous ... not human.. and get that we are doing the best we can in life.. and we will still slip.. but we may not fall if...we just stay calm and understand ourselves... even if others don't understand us.

inspirational quote!

Hello bloggers :)



Making this blog a quick one!


I thought up this quote this morning and I feel its a great way to start out a new outlook... or at least just support the out look I have begun to take progress in..

"we are all at different stages, different ages, so lets just repect the different ways in which.. we change our selves"

Change is inevitable, the good, the bad and the ugly, will always occur... I guess after so much change has happened to me in a short span of time, I have learned to accept it alot more easily... I heard it plenty and they were right.. if the situation doesnt kill you it will make you stronger. I promise.

Inspirational Quote

Inspirational Quote

Hello beautiful bloggers!

I have to leave for work soon so I just wanted to post a quote I thought of this morning. I hope you all like it.

you're looking to the left and maybe it is all the stuff you have never hoped to see a day in ur life but u just keep seeing it... try looking to the right... you'd be amazed at the new view and beauty that comes along with it.

Have a great day bloggers! look to the right this time if you keep looking to the left! there is always another side that we all just dont seem to find because it can be hard... but once we do.. it is smooth sailing!

xoxox

Inspirational quote

Hello my beautiful bloggers... I wanted to quickly write out a quote I made on my own that I feel is true to me. If you all feel the same yay:) I'm glad I inspired you!

When you let go of fear or condemnation, you will be surpised that our hearts open up and do what is innately within us; to do unto others as you would want done unto you. -Love and give love in return

Many times, I just randomly jot down whats in my head and I like to look within myself from time to time since I surpise myself with how much I really know without having to always seek advice. Although it is good to seek advice sometimes but alwayas remember to take the good from the bad of everything. You are your own mind and your own being... advice should only be a way to awaken your own personal beliefs, never to steer you away from anything your truly feel.


xox 1love,


I hope you all had an amazing day!

when I find the time to post pictures of my weekend and some other moments. I will. I hope I entertain you guys xox!

Never Give up.

Never give up on your loved ones even when they have given up on themselves.

And to those who feel like giving up and feel unworthy. Never give up, love is way stronger than any lost hope. Love yourself so that you can appreciate the love others have for you... and always remember to Love, Love, Love.


And I will do the same... :)
Love You.

Memories always bring people back together

Hello friends! First off I haven't been on in a while I will catch up on all your blogs right after I type this out for all of you and myself:)

Yesterday night I met with a friend who I have known since highschool. Her name is Jessica as is mine, she is born in june as am I, and she is SO MUCH like me as am I like her!

I honestly have misser her very much she was always a good friend to me, who was always there for me. But life takes over you know? And you just begin doing the things you are always use to and feel comfortable doing. I have 3 close friends that I have a lot in common with and Jess, I love her but me and her were not on the same page, so we drifted.

She heard about my mom and she wanted to catch up and see how I was and give me support as she always did. I always told her for a out 3 months now... I would come around to do somehing but the days for somereason or another just weren't working out for the both of us.

So yesterday, we finally met up for a coffee and a chat. I am so happy to hear that shes really happy right now and she feels like shes finally herself and complete with who she is with in her life. I found it so coincedental since I was feeling the same way in my life so our talk was really impressive. Her and I always talked about boy problems in highschool because that was the typical teenage life you know? I remember she dated a guy from grade 10 till a year after highschool and when she broke up with him she called me right away to talk about it and I was right there for her despite the fact that we actually drifted around then too. But that's the beauty of our friendship. We never grew apart even though we were apart.

She brought up her ex and she always thanks me for being there for her because she said that if I wasn't there for her that day she would have never made the choice she knew deep down was right for her.
I told her sometimes you need someone to there listen to you and for someone to just understand you inorder to move on foward. As I was going on about this..she was searching through her wallet..

I was wondering what she was searching for but I just kept talking. She pulled out a peice of paper with my writing on it and said, "Jess, I never got rid of this... Everytime I switched my wallet I made sure I placed this in my new wallet. I feel it has always guided my way with whatever situation I'm in and you wrote it".
At first I was like what on Earth is she talking about? What did I write? I recognized the peice of paper but I couldn't remember what I wrote as I wrote alot all the time. It was a poem I wrote in 2007 for her..guiding her to make the right choice. It had to do with the mere fact that Our heart and our Mind combat eachother so much we never really know what to do!! It's so overwhelminng....

I remember now when I wrote this poem for her I was thinking about specifcally her and how much she was going through while making a choice on if she should be in the relationship or not. It was a long poem I wrote on 3 seperate peices of paper. I can't remember the first two as she only kept the very last one in her wallet..But the last one says it all..

This was what the last page read.

...was all about you, and now im through and there is nothing you can do. My conscience told my heart that you were the one for me. But as I got my brain involved the thought wasn't meant to be. Sometimes when your mind thinks twice about your hearts desire, It's a way of saying that your conscience is a liar.

basically, the whole poem states that your heart and your brain intersect through your conscience and that you need to understand them both equally. Your heart may feel love for someone but maybe that doesn't mean your inlove. And the only way to understand this is to use your brain too and not just your heart. If your brain thinks twice all the time... Then you need to be true to yourself and do what makes you, your mind and your heart happy and alot of times thinking twice is just what one needs to make that right choice in life whatever it may be.

Jess told me that she does't just use it with relationships she said that she uses it for work situations as well or any other situation.

I felt such a beautiful feeling come over me,first that my poems have come along way :) and secondly, that she repected what I had to say. It made me feel wise and strong and more assured about my own self...

Not only that... Jessica made me feel like I actually touched her heart and I know that this feeling is right, well because...I didn't have to think twice about it.;)



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Signs are Everywhere!

I'm a firm believer that God gives us signs all the time. However, signs are not always given to us when we ask for them.


Signs should not steer faith:

Signs should only confirm our faith and should not be the other way around, in the kingdom of God that would be like the tail wagging the dog. Nuh uh not gonna work.


My point is, lately I have received such beautiful signs. And all have come when I don't ask for them. I just reflect on what has happened throughout the day and realise yes, God is telling me everything will be alright.


Today, I spent the day with Handsome. We relaxed by the pool side and chatted about all sorts of things. I haven't really gotten time to spend time with him in the form of utter relaxation. It eazed our minds fully and felt great.

I wish I had taken pictures of us because we don't have any recent pictures lately. I didn't have my camera or camera phone at hand. I was too busy just enjoying his company.


I received such a beautiful sign from God today :) it felt so assuring. In the back of my head all day today I constantly felt that I wanted God to pat me on the back and say, "Jess, you did good kid. Keep it up". Tick tocking away, I wasn't sure if I really felt God's gesture. As I reflected back on my day, something dawned on me, actually about 10minutes ago. A light bulb went off! SO I wasn't crazy, I DID feel tap taping on my back! ;)

This is why...

I was saying goodbye to Handsome and his phone rang, he was on the phone with his soccer buddies so my goodbye kiss had to wait for a bit... As we were sitting in the car, Handsome picked up one of my CD's from Ciara and discretely searched through the song titles as he talked away on the phone. I didn't think anything of it, just thought he was a little bored talking away. But he left the CD cover opened up on my lap with no meaningful intention. I looked down and focused on one word. Evolution. I continued to read it. (Keep in mind I haven't looked through the CD cover once since I had it).

It read:



Aleluyah! I finally felt like God was smiling down on me:) He noticed the change! Phew because, I notice the change, and Handsome noticed the change.. So my trio is completed.

Signs are absolutely everywhere. They don't have to be right in your face saying, "hey, hey look at me! I'm right here!!" They can be anything, big or small signs, but the most important thing to notice is that no matter the size of the sign it's still always the same outcome. God is present and listening. Just have Faith.

Inspirational quote:

"People see God everywhere. They just don't recognize Him"

What a Peaceful Place.

Hello everyone :)

I havent been able to write lately because I have been contemplating a whole lot. I feel like my whole life went through a whirl wind. And I knew that I had to take the leap. Although, I felt like I was going to be thrown right out of that whirl wind all alone... As inevitable as it was, I had to leap. I love all the people around me and I am blessed to have them in my life. But I needed to express myself to them for some reason. It just felt right. I talked to Handsome about a whole lot. And througout that talk I felt like luck was just not on my side. But after a few days, things got better. Alot better I must say.Not because of luck but because of love.

You know when your heart compels you to just let something go? well I did so. I needed to, and I got to see what love was truly about just by doing that. like a boomerang we both came back to one another at full impact. We are both still young but we know one thing, we will always have obstacles. All I know is that this obstacle that I endured was one obstacle that I know I won't have to face again.
This leads me on to an inspirational quote.

"If we don't understand the past we are condemned to repeat it".

That's one of my very important punchlines in life. And in this little moment, I needed to understand it and so did Handsome. We grew up differently just to generalize it all... But just like precious love birds; both flying different paths in life finally found eachother and continue their journey now flying the same path. Forever. Until one one dies off, so does the other.


Aren't they beautiful:)


... I took some time to think about my life and where I was at and where I am today. I find that I need serenity for this period of my time. And so doing, I thought of the one place I felt at eaze other than in the revine of my brampton home where nature was everywhere. At the bottom of my pool. I forgot how beautiful and tranquil water is to me. I love swimming. I swim every chance I get. But I lost the feel for swimming underwater because I hit teenagehood and let me just mention, blond was the "it" thing. Hence, I never wanted my hair to turn green from the chlorine! But my pool where I live today is salt water and my hair, well it's brown now so I began swimming underwater again. In this time of revelation... I felt I needed to visit the pool once again. Not to tan or feel a sense of relaxation, but to feel a sense of meditation. I stepped out my back door, stepped into my pool, lunged down and instantly felt peace as I swam from one end to another. At moments I felt like I was a peaceful creature swimming the ocean. no noise, no obscene dark objects, just beautiful, pure salt water. Call me crazy. But as I did that, I meditated. I found where my heart is even though that was obvious to me. I also found out why my heart is where it is. A rush and immense feeling of love streamed right through me just as I streamed across the bottom lining of my pool. I felt no anger, no sorrow, no insecuritues. Just peace and love. If I hadn't run out of breath I would have stayed down there way longer...
Meditating is a work of art. I suggest you find your peaceful place:) XOXO

Clothes and Life, they're the Same!

Life is alot like clothes. It doesn't matter what your wearing but it matters how you wear it.

It's about putting each peice of clothing on with satisfaction and content, not because you need to cover up and hide your real identity.

I hope we are all wearing those killer stilletos because we feel they complete our outfit, not because we need to present ourselves with a bit more class, height or approval.

I hope we match our clothes because the colors compliment our visual of the world and its beauty, not because there is a certain order to things that we all should structurlize towards.

And when we throw that old sweater far back into the closet, I hope it's because that top is no longer useful because we grew out of it and not because the nifty new items are just bigger and better to replace it with.

Clothes can be fabulous...
or imposturous!
And so can life!

That's exactly why us girlies are so smart when it comes to style ;)

Short Inspirational Thoughts

My Own Inspirational Quotes
If you can't learn to let things go, and live life for all the blessings and not the hatred, then what is life worth living? Let it all go and smile because you mean it, not because you want to make people believe it.

The kind of person you ought to become depends on your notion of how deserving you feel you are, and only you can decide that, not any other.

I don't want to be who I was yesterday, I want to learn from the past and avoid what I didn't find considerable while I'm in the present, so that I could have a better tomorrow.

Inspirational thought: Growing up

Something I wrote a while back. In highschool, so about 5 years back.



I am determined and that I should be... that is the answer to my question... I know myself, like I know my rights, I know my health like I know the worth of my life.... everything that shines in my life... I consider it mine. Stand up for what you want what you think or what you plan on doing... a closed mouth doesn’t get you anywhere... Speak up! Whatever happens will happen and the outcome is always worth it... so put effort into it .... Don’t lose it...grow from it.... know you want more... and exceed to succeed.... Don’t look at other people they're just cheap imitations of what you shouldn’t be... because what you are and what you’re capable of is everything you and only you can amount to and no one else can do that job for you. Don’t look up to others look down on them ...know your higher and be the best of your world.... you are not what people want you to be... you are what you can and will be..... I have experiences that make me what I am.... you have experiences that make you who you are... our journey doesn’t end there so live it ..... and love it ..... never look back at those who were cowards in your life... because they just gave you a stepping stone to walk across another little rock to guide you to your way.... just keep stepping.